They say time heals all wounds - time makes you forget what you were missing before - ya da ya da. I will tie my amazingly deep quote into my love of Cali. I forgot how much I loved it. I forgot how much I missed it. I forgot how many friends I really do have. I forgot how much I loved being outside EVERYDAY - either running or walking (mostly walking) the dogs, playing sports with my cute little family, having Adam laugh at my baseball, soccer, handball, volleyball, frisbee, golf, etc, etc. skills. Truth be told - I am the bomb at handball. The only thing missing is Jade. I know she is where she sould be - I know this is important for her to be on her own. I want her to get an education. All the logic is there - but the heart doesn't understand logic. (That was beautiful). Just wait you guys. I read all of your cute blogs and see all of your cute little ones. I wish we had blogs when our girls were little. It is so neat to see how their lives are documented. Ashley - yes it is normal to want to eat up your kids. It is an unsatiable desire to hug and kiss and squeeze and love your little guys. Then they grow up and leave and you miss them so bad and you forget all the snotty talking back, all the naughty behavior and remember them as nothing but awesome. I do have to say I loved each stage of Jade's life so there are good things to look forward to as they age. Though, once they hit about 14 they don't generally like you to tackle them and give them zerberts and kiss them all over. Just a heads up for you younger moms. So - Cali is awesome I love it. I have gotten to see so many old friends. You make friends in new places - it's just that when you are raised in an area where your parents and your inlaws were well known - you run into alot of people who know you or you know them. I actually have lot's of lunch dates and am not home feeling sorry for myself that I don't have more babies or a fulfilling career. (I hope you all feel bad for me).
Another note - I got a job - it is a crazy one that gives me lot's of anxiety but I am never bored. I am working for James Hardy (Camber Carlston's hubby). Planning and putting together all his companies seminars and events. They are hooked up with a law firm and doing loan modifications. Their business is exploding. Plus James is a little crazy to work for - but we get along. Camber and I are having fun together again so it works. They are living right on Beach Row in San Clemente and so our kids and families have fun together. My point is - We are hoping to save enough to do in vitro or adopt. I only have a few more years left so pray we can make enough in the next year or so. (man - I am getting old!!)
Also - I just found out my STUPID doctor in Utah put me on some idiotic medicine. My new doctor here was amazed that I had been put on 2 things that are not even very good and they make you gain weight. One was for blood pressure - caused by my crazy heart - I recently found out. One was for nerve damage (long boring info). About 2 years ago I started putting weight on and didn't understand why. This last year I have been exercising 1 1/2 hours a day and eating veggies, chicken, fish - you know all the healthy crap with no taste - And barely lost anything - no matter how much I exercised or ate healthy it wouldn't come off. I was getting soooooooo depressed. Then I found a new doctor here - he took me off 2 seperate meds. I had to slowly get off of them and since I have been off of them I have already lost a few pounds without doing anything special. I just thought I was old and hopeless and would be nice and round for the rest of my life - thank heavens that is not the case!!!!!!!!
Bay is making friends and having fun. It is hard leaving old friends but she has never ahd a problem making new ones. She writes about her cute life on her blog.
Reed's Track Meet
8 years ago
